Changes bombarded me financially, emotionally, socially...even physically. We went from one income to two to one (which was a bigger change than expected thanks to a new car and icky healthcare). I went from being around a fun, challenging group of adults every day to staying home with my beautiful, hilarious one-year-old. I went from getting up very early and having to be somewhere, to getting up not so early and getting to make my own schedule. I've had to learn how to manage my time better, plan meals and use coupons, work around a busy little person, and choose a good attitude.
While my staying at home and not working a sometimes stressful job is something Lee has always been supportive of, its not something that has ever been a specific goal of mine. All that to say, the first month (or two...ahem) was not easy. Even hanging around with this booger all day:
And then I was reminded of something very important: God hasn't commanded me to make a lot of money, or to climb the professional ladder, or even to be "successful" as the world defines it. He commands me to do the best I can do at whatever I'm doing. And he commands me to be obedient. I know that quitting my job was the obedient thing to do, and whether I'm staying home all day, teaching my precious 2-year-olds two days a week at MDO, or cooking and cleaning - I am to do it to the absolute best of my ability. I'm ashamed it took me so long to get it, and I'm embarassed at how often I forget it! Esther can't believe it either...
I am thankful for a gracious God who forgives me over and over. And I am incredibly grateful for a husband who is patient and also very forgiving. Finally, I'm so glad I get to be home with Esther all day and watch her learn and explore new things. My life could not be more blessed.
